12/6/00 group cancelled again

Well, no group again this week, we also didn’t have it last week for the same resons, not enough teens were coming and with the few who were going to go, they mostly didn’t have rides.

Tonight we actually had a family meeting, mom was actually home and both counselors came over but at different times, and Teri stopped in the room for about a minute. We as in mom and I had to read and sign my isp, since I’m the identified client, and it was pretty interesting. The first line was Needs, Mary needs to get help with well, it said something about my weight, I think about how I see myself. Also it has stuff in it about school and stuff, I read it all and thought before I even signed it that I may be getting help with my eating disorder!!! See, on the medical section of the forms, it mentioned that my service providers would make referrals as ness. so I think they are starting to look around, and the worst thing is, I never told them what I did with then rest of my pills saturday morning before this stuff happened at work a week before the last.

We started on decorating, I can be very persuassive when I have an important reason to be, mom said that she didn’t feel like decorating at all this year, even with a Christmas tree. I can’t see that happening, esp. with my depression, I mean, the decorations and the whole Christmas spitrit makes you automatically feel like 10 times better!!!

I can’t wait till tomorrow, I am going on a field trip from school and I am going to get to come home, get my rotc uniform ready and out of the way, then go to the fire department 7-9 and then when I get home from my second day in the explorers, then we’re going to put the tree up if everyone is here and all.