I don't think I want to say anything to Rachel later today about how bad my eating has gotten. I felt like I was going to burst because I wanted to say something to someone, but at the same time some of the things I want to say could be triggering. I don't even want…
Ok so I read a comment from my last entry and it was confusing. Early this morning the receptionist called to cancel my session because my therapist is sick. I hope that I will see her tomorrow but there's not a good chance of that since it's the last day of the week when she'll…
I am 26 today, and it's nice, but really feels like just another day. i am upset because I missed church this morning, woke up at 11, by the time we would have gotten to church a half hour later I would've felt stupid for bothering, plus I wouldn't have gotten to really sit and…
Yahoo! I did have to drive J to work where he left his car and was a little late getting to church but we made it!! I miss it and love being there! It feels so good,…… Life is FAST. Mine flies by a lot. Days melt into each other. Weeks go by, Seasons, years….
I went to the bridal shower yesterday (Sat) and had a good time! I stayed up late into the night dusting furniture and sweeping some of the stuff up off carpets, and stacking up my books and things getting ready to switch rooms out. I was impatient about having to wait to move the furniture…
I am not feeling so crazy anymore, but still have a lot going on. I am hanging in there! Thanks, whatslost. I felt reckless the other night. I got triggered and set off from things but all that really was the matter was that I was TIRED. I have tonight, and then I have part…
I am not doing well at all these last couple of days. I was doing great, and am starting to go downhill. I still desperately want to get better and will do ANYTHING I can to help myself, but life SUCKS. I am getting tired of living mine. I am NOT suicidal and will never…
I had a big anxiety attack. Not worse then others, but just the first one in a long time. Nothing was really wrong at first, but then I got all emotional and crying, and angry and just feeling insane. I know it's from having two hours of sleep and a whole lot of stuff to do…
People often ask me if therapy helps. Yes, it really does. I think that everyone should have a therapist, and I secretly love the fact that I have a whole hour to talk over things with someone who knows and cares and also can't tell about things with a few obvious exceptions. My therapist in particular…
I have not written a journal or diary entry for a while now. My life has been different. Some good, and some bad. I used to restrict, then binge, then purge, start over. I have not been purging (by vomiting) at all for the last couple of weeks, and I have noticed something with the restricting-then-bingeing…