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wednesday 2/3/10Made it to wic appointment, though a little late. Had a great abnd fun day with the girls, ate egg sandwiches, took a nice nap. Terry came over to see the girls for a bit, was nice and stuff. I left to get more papers for the H1N1 shots, picked out some new clothes…

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Tuesday 2/2/10Partly because I may not have been outside and I really wasn’t inbterested I happily missed giving this guy Ira a ride home. I ate 3 meals and a snack. i felt like I had too mahy chips but DIDN’T PURGE. I felt good and relaxed. I was happy, made it to my appointments,…

12/16/09

I just remembered what my homework is. i am to work on my food monitoring sheets/time ranges. That is difficult so I know if I do this it’ll be a huge step for me. I want to see the improvements- I want to get through them all even if it is one by one. I…

12/15/09

Tuesday 12/15/09 feel lousy, numb, having chest pains strong urge to keep eating and purging all day. Monday i felt great and hopeful about recovery, now I’m wondering if my chest pain is caused from starting over again with purging after taking a break from doing it over and over. I don’t know if I…

11/15/09

Sunday 11/15/09 I felt nauseated for some reason earlier tonight. I even felt different throwing up because I couldn’t control it and it tooik me a while to realize what i threw up. I am glad that I noticed a difference and that i didn’t just purge and try to justify it. Why would I…

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I had a terrible night last night., even if I did get laid outside during a storm. That was funny, he went out to the balcony but it was pouring so bad he said it was like a wterfall coming down off the roof. So he walked outside, I finished what i was doing inside…

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Thursday 2/5/09J did our taxes yesterday, getting back about $6,065. He paid me today, $131. It was dad’s 71st birthday. Yesterday I had to decide how to eat this week. I agreed with rachel about starting to make meal plans. She was talking about me eating 1,200 calories a day. I think if I really…

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Monday 2/2/09I relied on some mountain dew last night for energy. I’m a busy lady, have a lot of things on my to do list. I am running on adrenaline right now. i stayed up all night and have been running around all morning so far trying to get my shit together. It is only…