Ok, this is confusing, so maybe it’ll help to write (type) it down. Wednesday, March 14 I stopped my last period. That Thursday, the 15th Brian moved in with us that night, the 16th, fri. was when I slept with him for the first time. I think that if I’m pregnant, it was from the…
Today my twin brought home a baby doll from school, because she signed up and get’s extra credit for it she took home a beautiful baby doll that weighs about 15 pounds and (before I changed the diaper I realized that her “daughter” was really her son) and wow. It’s was a few hours ago…
Right now all I want to do is cry and cry, and cry and CRY. Last night I stayed the night with my older half sister and I went to sleep after taking my pill around 9 and woke up at about 4. By 6 both Delores and I arrived at work it was my…
Tomorrow at lunchtime in the cafeteria there is going to be a dj and everyone who wants to is going to dress Hawiian, because it’s like pre prom thing for the seniors, that’s their theme for their prom this year and so I am dressing in jeans, this dark blue tank top that has spageeti…
Right now I have all a’s in my classes, today I swam even though I had a note to not, because of my ears again for another week, the swelling was down but it was still red and I noticed when very very carefully cleaning them out a little with q tips that my infected…
Steve made up or chart that we use to show me some logic, that I know already but can’t help. He says when I’m feeling good like by doing things that even kindergardners do, normal things like sleeping, eating right, that I’m happier. On my chart I have more positive points and I’m looking and…
The second night after he got here, friday night, then Sunday night, then last night, wenesday. And def. tonight. Oh, yes. It’ll will be much longer, and sweeter. He’s had a baby once and may have one on the way, and last night he told me he had to stop, he said this feels so…
stupid, stupid, stupid. That’s all I can think of myself as. I rememeber I used to think I was a little smart. I think that may have been way back, like before I was in school. I did what was wrong the other night. I know that now, because last night he told me that…
Wow. Since I last wrote on here,… a lot has happened. Physically and emotionally. I can’t even remember if I wrote how the night before last, but anyhoo, in case I didn’t, at like maybe 11, mom babysat at home over the summer. One boy was older then us, he was 14, Brian. He stayed…